Fun

Well today I have a little bit of good news. The DRE (Department of Real Estate) just cashed my check and I can sign in to their web site! I still don't have an exam date yet, but at least something has happened.

Today we go to park day and the kids will dress up in their costumes and go from mom to mom trick-or-treating and we will have a pot luck of goodies. How fun! And the best news of all....I FEEL SOMEWHAT AWAKE! Maybe I will get to enjoy this day. :)

Dissapointment...or...new beginning

Maybe both. I can't say I am thrilled but, maybe I will finally figure out what is going on with my body. I had an appointment with an Endocrinologist this morning. I had been diagnosed with Hashimoto thyroid syndrome. Well...he scanned my thyroid today and said it looked like a perfectly normal healthy thyroid. My levels were normal except for the low TSH which would be right because I am on medication for hypothyroidism. So, he is switching me to a more accurate medication (the synthetic one) and then he plans on weaning me off. I am always happy at the prospect of NOT having to take medication. My concern is....I am already having problems with my energy (which is why they diagnosed me with thyroid probs in the first place) now, what is going to happen to what little energy I have left and why do I have so little? This is still a mystery. This new DR. said we will have to work backwards to figure it out. So, we need to rectify this mess before we deal with that one....but what do I do to stay awake in the mean time????? I have a life that I would eventually like to get back to. One that involves swimming and kayaking and hiking and biking and walking to hell and back. Not to mention the time I am missing out on doing those things with my kids! And there is the hope for a career....

My dream of dreams is to just be better. Maybe, just maybe...I will be weaned off this medicine and it will trigger something in my body to just go back to normal(well, normal for me). Then I can just go about my marry little way. :)

Progress...sort of...

I finally have all my paper work in order and sent off to the DRE! Now I have to wait for them to process my paper work and give me access to the online data, so I can pick an exam date and time. Now, I hope I don't forget anything....Yes, I am still going over the material, but...it is very dry and I have already gone over it, hhhmmm a hundred times. I just start drifting off in thought when ever I look at it.

We have our Refugee Camp trip this Friday! I think it will be very cool. Although, I will not be scheduling any more field trips until January. Just to much going on. Chalise and Jim's schedules will be changing. Holidays approach. Loads of stuff to do and get done. I will hopefully have training soon...then a new career. Still don't have a clue on how this will all work. I just know it will. :)

I also finally have an apt. with an Endocrinologist to figure out what is happening with my thyroid. Wish me luck. Hopefully I will have more energy and get all this straightened away and can move on and have a whole life.

STRESS

OK, I know I am so NOT alone in this...
I take a big breath and try to relax. I went to the doctor finally, told her what is going on...feeling tired a Lot, getting very frustrated in trying to get my life back. So, what comment does she have for me....do you have feelings of hurting yourself or not feeling like you are worthy of living? O-O...WHAT???? NO, I am pissed off that I can't do the things I want to do because I have NO ENERGY!!!! I want to live! Not to be some big blob! So, I see she rights..wait for it.....Acute reaction to stress on my form.... Well, I guess she doesn't think that anyone should have any feelings on fighting for their health and getting frustrated after fighting for oh....about three years intensively. I finally get to go to an Endocrinologist! I sure hope he is good. My Dr. did run some blood test that came back extremely weird. I have the lowest cholesterol in my entire life (I have type II which is a liver dysfunction that is hereditary, my numbers have NEVER been below 300) My TSH (some sort of thyroid stimulating thinging mabob was lower than ever and I am on meds for thyroid. I sure hope I can get this all straightened away. After all I am not getting any younger or any more patient! Hufp

Well all, sorry this couldn't be a more fun and positive post. But it is what it is...wish me luck!

Waiting Game

OK, I have been studying as much as possible and now it is seeming very boring. I hope I can remember at least enough to pass my test, which doesn't even have a set day yet. Saturday, I go for my Livescan. After which, I can send all my paperwork in to the board and wait for a date. Then I will have about two to four weeks until that date.

I have a field trip that I am trying to get confirmation on and am having no luck. I know another person was trying for the same trip and I have written her to see if she has heard anything about her schedule yet. The trip is for less than 20 days now an I have been waiting for more than two months for confirmation. I did receive handouts though.... I think the company was overwhelmed by the response they got. If all else fails and I don't hear from them soon....I will go to my plan B and send the handouts to everyone that had interest and they can go on their own if they choose. It just would have been cool in the group with the guide and all. :)

I am going to relax as much as I can today. If Cameron is feeling better, maybe we will go to Disneyland.